Murkle, You don't know anything about me or my clients.
That said, and since you told us that you took a "logic" class one time, you'll now realize that your statement is logically construed to read:
"I hate my willful ignorance and the sordid belief structure it has enabled me to construct concerning amp".
This idea that I hurt my clients a figment of your imagination which you have created to fill a need to both systematically AND irrationally debate non-threatening anonymous and distant strangers on any topic (your favorite being AmEx-related) in an attempt to win arguments using faux-logic, putdown technique, personal attack, conjecture, spin, opinion-stated-as-fact, etc. Each time you feel you've "won" an exchange (whether by raucously claiming victory for yourself, or utilizing "wear down" tactics) you feel validated (momentarily)...but then it's time to try to slander and conquer someone else, because you don't like who you are, so you'd rather anonymously project those uncomfortable emotions on people you'll never meet, and "prove" to yourself that at least your debate skills may be more effective than theirs, and therefore 1 more person can be dismissed as a threat to your fragile self-concept.
This defense mechanism I am describing also indicates deepseated control issues. This forum represents a "game" to macca, where she sees herself as "player 1"--the controller. These feelings have been exacerbated by having a closed "DIY" board where she can play dictator and attempt to propagandize a population with no feedback. Her goal is to control people's thoughts and behaviors -- she will calculate which insults will get which amplitude of feedback response, thereby delighting in the in/direct attention and emotion she has instigated and satisfying her need to be "orchestrating" (controlling) external events. All of this is to compensate for her perceived lack of influence concerning the internal events of her own life.
A case can be made that macca also exhibits paranoia. She feels that there are forces that are "out to get her." In order to make this paranoia more palpable and real, she uses her baiting and control techniques, which annoy many people to the point of confrontation, thus validating her feelings that people are out to get her--classic feedback loop. But when those shadowy forces don't have a definitive and measurable presence, it's too uncomfortable for macca to cope with, so utilizing yet another defense mechanism, she labels her enormous paranoia with an "AmEx" identity (others may label their paranoia "Big Brother"). It is convenient for her to do this since she percieves herself as a VIP, Celebrity or Role Model type, thus a requisite large population and institution (amex/aefa) has necessarily contracted "Tall Poppy Syndrome" in jealousy of her perceived elevated status...This was also a reinforcing feedback loop when she was employed by amex/aefa--her paranoia could be validated by close proximity of coworkers who macca felt "didn't like her", although she didn't have the scope to realize that she had/s taken actions to make herself difficult to like, fulfilling her prophecy and completing the loop.
We can support this evidence by her own account that she is a retiree--one who spends an apparent average of 50+ hours a week on various internet sites "picking" debates. Most accredited psychoanalysts would likely agree that this is unhealthy behavior. Most humans would probably agree that there are "better things to do".
My theories are up for debate (but not by morka).